報復 Bàofù III: Homecoming: Ten Miles of Peach Blossoms Fanfiction Ch 10

But once burned twice shy…..

It was a passing flash of wavering. A temporary moment of shaking. A brief period of questioning that was brought on by Ye Hua’s fearless declaration that echoed noisily in her mind. His voice was faint but his words shouted out to her powerfully, like a sonic boom when he spoke of his heart’s desire.

What did he say that made her cold heart tremble? …He said~ “I don’t know about you but my heart races when I see you, and I can’t stop myself from wanting you to fall in love with me.”

Ye Hua didn’t stop there but continued to make her shake more when he declared~ “Did you know that just looking at you sometimes breaks my heart, because I want to touch and kiss you. I want you to be mine, is that so wrong?”

How could a man-child like Ye Hua speak such bold, and audacious proclamations without consideration of how she would feel after hearing something so stirring? He made a daring love confession, and professed romantic sentiments of love to another woman when he had Sujin in his heart still?

Bai Qian blankly stared down at her writing, and thought of earlier in the day when Sujin’s venomous poison-like words seeped into her. She just wanted to run away. But it was pure foolishness on her part, because it was she who went to Ye Hua’s second wife, and asked more of their history. And while listening to her, it became quite clear…

It was she, SuSu, who’d interfered in their long lasting love affair that started in early childhood.

Sujin knew everything about Ye Hua. Even how he looked when he was a newborn baby, and vocalized about how she’d faithfully sat beside him during all those long spun lonely hours, while he studied alone. She was his only companion so it was more than natural, and fitting for mutual affections to develop between them.

Sujin’s detailed accounts of Ye Hua’s terrible childhood, solitary life were an exact match to Lian Song’s, but Bai Qian now knew much more about them than she ever wanted to know. She even learned the tragically dark truth, as to why Ye Hua always wore black attire from Sujin:

“After his ascension to High Immortal, my poor Ye Hua was covered in blood, and his sad mother cried to see him in such a state, so he started to wear black to hide any bleeding. That’s how my Ye Hua is and often thinks of others before himself. I started to make all his clothing black after that year.”

Sujin confessed with a blush in her cheeks, demurely crossed her hands in her lap, and went on about how she was there when he agreed to marry Bai Qian. She said that Zhe Yan and the Fox Emperor were furious, demanding absorbent compensation for Prince Sang Ji’s mistake. But just as the blade was about to behead the snake, Ye Hua selflessly volunteered to marry her, regardless of her age for his uncle’s sake:

“We were heartbroken and inseparable, but he assumed he would have to marry someone someday, so why not just marry you. But even after you two were engaged, I used to take Ye Hua’s lunches to his bedroom, and wake him with a light shake of my handkerchief over his slumbering face. You know how handsome he looks in his sleep and he looks even younger, wouldn’t you agree, Gugu? Anyways, he loves…just loves my perfume. However, I’ve never used any and it’s my natural scent. He’s quite silly.”

It was somewhat nauseating listening to her, but Bai Qian asked why Sujin married Ye Hua’s grandfather, and learned this too was for Ye Hua when she replied:

“I did everything for Ye Hua, of course. He needed several additional troops for his army to make the first strike during the Mermaid War, and my general uncles supported me while I supported Ye Hua wholeheartedly. My marriage to Heavenly Lord was purely an act of statesmanship, but we never consummated our marriage, because everyone knew I was Ye Hua’s woman.”

That’s what Sujin said and more:

“I was there too, fighting by Ye Hua’s side. I witnessed him become injured and nursed him back to health. However, he was still angry, and refused to listen to my explanation about marrying Heavenly Lord.”

Sujin announced as her faint tone of voice shook with real emotion, when she explained things that Bai Qian never knew:

“By then, he’d already met you and experienced physical and sexual love for the first time. He asserted that he’d impregnated you by mistake, when I eavesdropped in on a private discussion between Ye Hua and Prince Lian Song. Ye Hua stated that he was going to wait til you gave birth to the baby, then feed you water from the River of Oblivion to make you forget everything, and keep the baby for us to raise together.”

How deplorable. Bai Qian never heard anything about taking A-Li, and feeding SuSu water from the River of Oblivion until that very moment.

“Gugu, you don’t know about all the many passionate late night conversations we used to share with our copper mirrors. We often cried because it was bittersweet but what could we do? You were already here, and Ye Hua is much like High God Mo Yuan in the sense of responsibility.”

Said Sujin and unfortunately for Bai Qian, she could attest to one of their tear filled talks, because she’d heard it through the mirror on her side.

It was heartbreaking but Sujin’s disease began to trickle into Bai Qian’s muddled brain. Ye Hua’s second wife seemed to precisely know all of Bai Qian’s exposed, most tender spots and deliberately poked at those open wounds, as she tied up her story perfectly.

She went further by slicing deep into Bai Qian’s most vulnerable Achilles tendon, when she spoke of the incident at Zhuxian Terrace. Sujin told her that Ye Hua was furious at SuSu, and specifically proposed that he remove her eyes personally.

His primary reason was even more shocking, when she declared that he couldn’t trust anyone else with Sujin’s precious new eyes. And how he had sat by her bedside for days, while she recovered from the organ transplant procedure.

Sujin’s candid admission made Bai Qian speechless and all she could say was, “So, Sujin. Everything, all the vile, wicked deeds you did was for Ye Hua’s love and once again, I’m enlightened by your unique insight. But, Consort, your love is quite dangerous and obsessive. Hurting someone’s spouse to gain one’s heart… Aren’t you afraid of Karma?”

“Who cares about Karma when even temporary, even short-term love makes people insane, childish and selfish but I was fighting for my only soulmate. Gugu, if I had the chance to do everything again…”

Sujin paused to take a deep inhalation and continued with conviction, with sharp cutting words that came out of her foul mouth, then slashed like razor blades:

“I would without delay or hesitation and this time I wouldn’t lose to SuSu. But I was too considerate, tenderhearted because she was carrying Ye Hua’s baby, and he promised me that I could adopt the baby after she left.”

“Ye Hua may never say these words, but SuSu was a major responsibility and burden after she lost her sight. So you see how I was destined to be A-Li’s legal mother, and I would be today had you not returned.”

Sujin cried bitterly full of resentment when she spoke these words:

“From one woman to another who knows the burning, aching pain of heartbreak. I’m begging you to release Ye Hua and let him come back to me. He may have loved SuSu, but he was obligated and forced to marry you, Gugu. Ask anyone who was there that day. Your father, High God Zhe Yan, Prince Sang Ji were there and we all knew but maybe you didn’t.”

Bai Qian would have sat there in a lost daze if Sujin hadn’t abruptly stopped talking, then kowtowed to Bai Qian until her pasty pale forehead became dark and bruised. That’s how much she wanted, needed her lover back and who was she to stop them? If it were the other way around and she loved Ye Hua first, would she be begging Sujin? Yes, she certainly would because he was worth it and more.

Now Bai Qian regretted going to Sujin, and it was absurd for her to think she could get validation to weaken her heart’s defense. She could never let him in, and endless tears ran down her face as she scribbled out Chapter 19 ‘Ceasefire’ with a hidden message to Ye Hua.

If he read it carefully, it displayed Bai Qian’s most suppressed but heartfelt emotions and desires, as she covertly inscribed the secret love confession within the many written words.

But once burned twice shy… Her concerns, her suspicions, her fears of heartbreak were far more significant than Bai Qian’s want, and demand to be cherished and loved by Ye Hua.

For them only in her fictional could they have love or a ceasefire. But in reality and life, it would always be a constant conflicting struggle, as opposing sides of her heart and her brain’s desires fought actively.

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Warrior God…..

Ye Hua was not aware of all the deceit, distortions that transpired between SuSu, Qian Qian and Sujin when he returned from the Eastern Sea, after a week long period of separation. He needed to calm down and cool off, after reading Mo Yuan was his love antagonist in her story. And found Chapter 20 ‘Remembrances’ of her fiction with a short, cold note from his missing wife and son that read~

I’ve gone to my real home on Kunlun Mountain. Don’t come to me. I’ll see you when I’m ready…

She was going to and try to drive him insane. In a fury, he read then violently threw the scroll against the wall enraged. His virgin wife, Qian Qian, so kindly left him a vulgar explicitly written detailed narrative of herself, giving and receiving mutual oral pleasure 69, followed by a brutal deflowering of her virginity with her Warrior God.

And of course, her particular Warrior God was Ye Hua’s older brother, Mo Yuan. Her beloved Shifu!

Ye Hua asked himself, Why was he being punished? He hadn’t bothered or seen her all week! Qian Qian was purposely antagonizing him, trying to provoke him and she was highly successful.

He wasn’t usually one to snap like a brittle twig but Ye Hua’s intense jealousy, and possessiveness pushed him over the brink of insanity. This madness caused him to act out irrationally when he rushed up to Kunlun Mountain.

Once Ye Hua got there; he was thoroughly outraged to observe Qian Qian standing with a group of her disciple brothers smiling, laughing, hanging on them and giving affectionate skin-ship as she NEVER did with him.

The intensity of his ferocity made it so he couldn’t see straight. Too blinded was he by the full wrath and Ye Hua rudely dashed in, roughly yanked her by the arm but her body wouldn’t budge.

Angrily he glimpsed back over his shoulder astonished to see his older brother, Mo Yuan. The Master of Kunlun Mountain aka Qian Qian’s Warrior God protectively, but tenderly clenching her other arm to hold her back, as his authoritative gaze stared Ye Hua down in pure confusion.

To be continued…..

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