Lullaby…..
Bai Qian’s speeding heart pounded as their perspiration covered bodies paced, and matched in perfect harmony. She and Ye Hua coupled, and joined to become one in their passionate lover’s dance. Among irregular, winded breaths, she murmured in sheer ecstasy, “So thick…so hard…you’re so deep inside me.”
The heated moment between them blazed like an inferno for the impassioned lovers, she and Ye Hua. There was an unspoken sentiment of raw, and untamed lust between them when they made love. Bai Qian was wanton, free and uninhibited with her young mate. She expressed herself, and all her desires most candidly with sexually graphic language, as she provocatively purred, “I never want you to stop… Ye Hua…don’t ever stop fucking me.”
Grunting with intensified arousal, he gave it right back, “Qian Qian… I love fucking you… I’m never going to stop. Take it all…” Ye Hua growled and shoved his tongue in her mouth. He sped up and picked up the pace of his already accelerated, aggressive penetration. The sudden change in velocity caused a swift increase torrent of her juices. Her love liquids left him soaking wet where their bodies met, married and the slippery fluids transferred on his thick shaft creating slick effortless diving thrusts that plunged deeper.
Ye Hua plunged low. She cried out at the end of his punches from the sharp pain of him hitting too far down, too deep, but she was drowning in her pleasure. He owned and intimately knew how to push all the buttons on her body. He knew her better than she knew herself and left her panting like an animal in heat.
“I love you… I love you so much, Ye Hua.” Her heavy panting exhales loudly resounded in the room bursting with heady sex scented air. “Qian Qian, Only you… I love you more than anything else in the world…” He responded to his beloved and punctuated his love declaration with a hot French kiss, because he knew she loved the taste of his mouth.
He did understand her best, and Bai Qian couldn’t get enough of Ye Hua’s unique flavor. Their twirling, intertwined tongues made love frantically as their bodies did. Then the rush – the sudden interior quickening inside the heart of her femininity. Followed by the expanding inner swell of his ready male sex before the abrupt halt. A sharp jerk then he groaned raspy, “Yes… Too tight… Coming…” He cried out gruff, his sexy voice sounded thick from climax as his swollen manhood pulsated, clenched, throbbed inside her like a heartbeat as he released and filled her with his seeds.
Ye Hua puffed through his mouth to catch his breath. “Qian Qian, I know…you’re on birth control…but…” He said in between broken breaths and now sucking in air through his teeth, he partially hissed. “But I wish you would let me impregnate you. I want to put my baby inside you.” He kissed her again and swallowed her moans. Slowly he entered, gradually withdrew and entered her again, most deliberately with the intentional purpose of ejecting every single droplet of his life giving essence inside her inner warmth.
At a decreased pace, he continued to penetrate her until his phallus became flaccid entirely, and rested against his defined groin. But Ye Hua glimpsed down at himself looking self-satisfied because even soft, his shaft was substantial and he knew it. That inner smugness now came out in his speech as he accepted his ‘male gift’ with artificial humility and he announced straight faced. “You know, it’s a blessing and a curse, being me. Not many other men could handle this much ‘weight’ on the front of their bodies but I have a very powerful and muscular lower back. It’s a Dragon thing…” He rubbed himself on her to quicken his growth and teased, “I know Mo Yuan has the Sword of the Yellow Emperor, but I have…”
She snickered and played along in Ye Hua’s playful banter, “What do you have?” He became most earnest and stated, “I think after my father created the massive four breasts, he neglected to put this on them and gave it to me… By mistake.” He pointed to his manhood proudly and went on. “Forget about fungal grass; this is what’s needed for the greatest life force transference.”
Then he smiled adorably. So very charming was his grin that her heart skipped a beat like a schoolgirl, but then that’s what Bai Qian was– a schoolgirl. And just like a playful youngster at a slumber party, she swung at him with one deft hurl. She wielded her fluffy pillow at him. Ye Hua watched her grabbed her cushion and ducked down. He jumped back before her swinging pillow made contact, but pretended as if she had hit her aim, and even performed the death scene before he settled in next to her snugly.
Their post climatic time was perfection… How could everything be this perfect, Bai Qian inwardly pondered? Every aspect of her life was astonishingly beautiful. Almost too beautiful that it reminded her of a childhood fairy tale. Ye Hua was the handsome Prince who woke his Princess with a kiss. However, if everything was so idealistic why did it not feel real?
Not feel real… She shivered and the thought made her tremble as she curled into him. Bai Qian in her heart knew this sweet wink of time between them was temporary, and like air, she needed his nearness. She needed Ye Hua’s physical presence, and pressed her cheek on his sternum, before settling against the long flat bone in his chest.
For a long, silent moment, she listened to his evenly thumping heartbeat which sounded remarkably authentic. It was almost believable but her eyes began to fill with unshed tears, because in her heart, Bai Qian knew the truth and wistfully began her somber soliloquy…
“I know you heard me earlier because I heard myself.” Her whispered soft voice murmured. She swallowed the knot-like lump in her throat and snuggled closer to his warm body. In and out, she slowly breathed the clean scent of his golden skin, and Bai Qian’s soft voice cracked, “I’ve broken the rules and fallen in love with you, Ye Hua. I swore I wouldn’t but it happened. I even confessed my love for you in front of the one who has been with us this entire time, and they heard me.”
As she spoke her last word, a precise model of Mo Yuan mysteriously materialized in the corner of the room looking jealous, but Bai Qian shook her head at the image in subtle disbelief, “That’s kinky. I never saw that coming but what a great way to ruin my fantasy. I can image the outrage already and I’m sure there will be a punishment for my offense.”
Now fresh hot tears accompanied Bai Qian’s melancholy sound of speech in her sad monologue, “Do you know where this is, Ye Hua? Shifu already knows but this here…” She waved her arm out in the air toward the school in a single graceful lift, “…It’s my happy and safe place on Kunlun Mountain. I spent a good part of my youth here…but recently wondered what it would have been like, if you and I met when I was innocent and your age.”
The image of Mo Yuan faded into nothing as quickly as he had appeared. However, Bai Qian’s loving gaze never left Ye Hua’s face, and continuous waterfall tears flowed freely. She didn’t bother to wipe them off her face and continued, “Imagine if we had met before… Before Li Jing, SuSu, SuJin… Before Shifu and I became lovers. Just you and I without any past grievances or offense?”
“Ah, it could have… No, it would have been such perfection. We would have been a perfect match made in heaven.” Bai Qian’s sorrowful voice now girlish and longing, “I envisioned a beautiful scenario of young, first, sweet love like us…now. You and your love that burns hotter than the sun. And me being your first, only love like SuSu.” She paused to cry for a while then uttered, “She was a lucky woman. I envy her.”
She snuffled unable to breathe in due to the congestion in her stuffy nose, and Bai Qian’s shuddered breath through her open mouth made her entire body tremble violently, as if she had the chills. However, she quickly giggled at her herself for her moment of self-pity, and tried to sound reassuring, “But don’t worry about me because I’m not feeling sorry for myself.”
Bai Qian patted her chest indicating it was about her now and gushed, “I had a perfectly innocent love too… I honestly did with my beautiful Shifu… My Shifu. I waited so long to be with him, to be loved by him.”
Sharply she exhaled in blatant hopelessness, “Sadly, I managed to screw that up too. Instead of making love, I made him… I forced him…” Bai Qian’s voice cracked and she hesitated, as if she couldn’t bring herself to speak the words but whispered shamefully, “I ruined what should have been a beautiful time for Shifu and me. I made a mess of everything, and even now I don’t remember how or why it happened as it did. I can’t remember because of these gaps in my memory.”
Tears rolled down the side of her face. Her nose ran as Bai Qian gave Ye Hua one last yearning, and loving glance before purposely laying on her back far away from him. Her eyes blankly drifted up to the stone ceiling overhead and her voice sounded little, “I love it here, you know. It’s peaceful, safe and warm but it’s the calm that I cherish most. I wish I could stay here forever.”
A sudden burst of sobbing cries came from her lips. Bai Qian wept openly and it was difficult to understand her, when she mumbled almost incoherently, “But this isn’t where I belong, is it? No. This place, you here with me, this situation isn’t real. Where should I go now? I’ve been many places and lived different versions of the twisted truth, because I honestly don’t want to go back there.” She fiercely shivered when she whispered ‘there.’
Now like a child hiding from the boogeyman, Bai Qian shut her eyes tightly as she mentally drifted in another secure place and time. When she reluctantly reopened her eyes, she found herself standing in her Shifu’s seclusion cave and asked, “How far did I travel back? Which fantasy land am I in now? Bàofù part I, Crimson Lotus part II or Homecoming part III? I guess it doesn’t really matter since I imagined them all.” Beside her like magical mist, Ye Hua appeared taking a tangible form next to her and rubbed her back. He gazed at her. She saw hope and it made her smile through her tears.
“You, again?” She summoned to the mirage and suddenly sounded somewhat lighthearted, even humored when she asked, “Am I bringing you with me, Ye Hua, or are you following me?” Bai Qian’s thin laugh trailed off as her slender shoulders slumped in resignation and accepted reality, “I know this isn’t right either…”
She sobbed and whimpered, “But if I leave the safety of Kunlun Mountain…” Her faint words were abruptly drowned out by hurricane winds, as a sudden rush of chaos and confusion overwhelmed her leaving her deaf. Still, even with the howling winds, she recognized a soft child’s voice. “Mother…” It called to her with a baby’s voice, “Mother…don’t give up.”
How could she have forgotten? “My baby…my poor innocent baby.” Bai Qian lamented and cried, “Mother is sorry that I can’t protect you now. All and everything is…was my fault. I did everything wrong.” She wailed uncontrollably as the most profound hidden memory emerged. The conscious awareness of the fetus endeavoring to persevere inside her body overwhelmed her…
The new life growing inside her dying body called to her in need, and Bai Qian remembered everything. Her heart ached tortuously and with a clenched fist she pounded at her chest, then with her hand firmly pressed to her aching heart, she accepted the depressing reality.
The cold, lonely baby was why she had come back to the place of horror, and this part of her returning journey was the most excruciating. With all her mental capacity, she successfully willed herself to another sheltered location, before her final nightmarish destination. Presently, Bai Qian found herself in Qing Qiu standing next to the lotus pond.
She saw a beautiful Crimson flower in the lotus pond in Qing Qiu…waiting. It was waiting for her return. The silent Red Lotus suddenly bawled like a startled newborn baby, and the crying echoed in Bai Qian’s ears. She jumped into the water, held the flower to her breasts and rocked it tenderly, “Shhhh… My precious baby, don’t cry anymore. Forgive me, your mother is back.”
Bai Qian’s delusion brought another familiar character forward, and this time it was her Shifu on his knees reaching for her. But her shame made it impossible to meet his tender gaze when he spoke. He said in his gentle voice, “My Shì Qī, be strong. It won’t be too much longer. I’m looking for you and I will find you.”
Her lips trembled as she held the cherished flower in a shielding, guarding embrace and she sounded frail, “Shifu, I’m sorry but I fell in love with Ye Hua. Don’t wait for me because I don’t deserve you and this baby isn’t yours.”
“Qian Qian…” The voice coaxed, “Qian Qian, don’t give up. I’m close…” Ye Hua or the vision of him was in the water behind her with his lips pressed to her ear, and the madness was deeply rooted, because she could feel the warm air from his breath. He hugged her closely and protectively placed his hands over the Lotus in her grasp, then clasped their hands together, “Qian Qian, be strong for the baby…it’s our baby. It’s our second chance to be a real family. A-Li dreams and longs for his sibling and mother.”
“My A-Li…you said he was YOUR son and that I was a crazy old bitch and you were right. I don’t have any right to be his mother. I’m undeserving.” High Goddess Bai Qian didn’t sound at all like her former royal character, when her vulnerable, timid voice squeaked like a mouse, “I know everyone thinks I’m fearless and courageous but in reality, I’m scared like I’ve never been before. That’s why I ran away, hid inside my head and I didn’t leave because of the physical pain. You see, it isn’t the torture that frightened me, but I’m losing my battle due to my pride and vanity.”
“I’ve never known such humiliation and disgrace in my entire life. I was born an Immortal Princess and lived in extravagance, so I’m lacking and not equipped with the means or know how to cope or endure it. I… I’m not SuSu and Bai Qian would rather surrender than fight. I’m tired, cold and weak. I’m going to resign from living since I’m already losing my spirit.”
“I think I’m dying and my inner fire is fading. I feel it happening and I know it’s a sign of weakness, but that’s why I escaped into the recesses of my mind. I created different false realities and disappeared but now I’m getting called back…”
Bai Qian’s poignant soliloquy came to its closing, “I should have stayed on Kunlun Mountain… I didn’t want to come back here but at least.” A strange radiant smile of acceptance came to her lips, “At least I’ll go into the next world with my child so she won’t be alone. I can’t do anything for her in this life but she won’t be afraid in the next.” Before her very eyes, the visible images of her loved ones began to evaporate like smoke. Then the deafening sound of rushing water filling the drowning tanks underneath her chained, and bound body as the current arrived on cue at its hourly schedule.
Bai Qian knew she had returned, even before a tempest of freezing polar liquid splashed her already soaking wet body. A forceful spray of water directly pointed at her face, brought her back to her hellish reality to the Hades inside the White Goddess’ torture water dungeon.
Painfully pin and needle-like army ant bites stung her outstretched limbs. Her cold body trembled from the freezing water which wasn’t any colder than the icy table, where Bai Qian remained chained as she had been for days.
The water wasn’t the only thing that revived her, but now Xuan Nu commanded in a furious high pitched shriek, “Wake Gugu! It’s only been two days since we brought her here, and you’ve managed to choke her out to the point of unconsciousness! Has everyone forgotten I need her alive and kicking!? Is everyone here an inbreed idiot!?”
“Let me remind everyone here AGAIN, that I need every-single-drop-of-blood from her Fox’s heart so if anyone kills her; I’ll hand deliver that person to one of her twin lovers to satisfy their wrath. Now wake her! What’s the point of torture if Gugu is passed out, and paralyzed but don’t mess with her face! Don’t forget that I’m particularly attached to that face. Now bring me the steel rod.” Xuan Nu’s distant waning voice moved closer, crystal clear now. She and Bai Qian met eyes before the Demon Queen ridiculed in a mocking sneer, “Little mother looks bored and needs some amusement.”
The staff swung in the air. The expanded steel metal rod struck her across her chest repeatedly, momentarily knocking the wind out of her, but High Goddess Bai Qian purred with a seductive smile, “That tickle amuses me immensely, my old friend. You may consider that to be torture but to me its foreplay.” She giggled as she closed her eyes and a peaceful smile came to her split, bloody lips because she drew within soothing the scared, trembling fetus inside her with a lullaby.
She crooned…
The water is wide
I can not get o’er
And neither have I wings to fly
Oh go and get me some little boat
And both shall row, my love and I.
Where love is planted, O, there it grows
It buds and blossoms, like some rose
It has a sweet and pleasant smell
No flower on earth, can it excel.
There is a ship sailing on the sea
It’s loaded deep, as deep can be
But not as deep, as in love I am
I know not if I sink or if I swim.
The water is wide
I can not get o’er
And neither have I wings to fly
Oh go and get me some little boat
And both shall row, my love and I.
To be continued…..